Well!

It's been AGES since I posted!

My laptop has recently been frazzled, so it's been hard to get on. Actually, to be honest, I forgot about this blog.. BUT THE STORY IS STILL TRUE!

So, back to me :)

My life recently.. has been.. hmm.. okay? Haha. No seriously, it's been alright recently. My family arn't as stuck up and bossy as they used to be. But, that's ever since my uncles died. (15th November 2009. RIP) I really miss him, and sometimes it's unbearable. Yet I find myself plastering my face with the same old fake smile? It's tiring. It's like my whole life is a lie, and i'm lying to everyone I know and love. But, if I don't, what will happen? Will I be happier if I tell them? Will they reject me? So many things could happen, and that's what makes me fear it the most. Even though I pretend I don't care what people think, and brush insults off, I DO care what people think. All though my younger years, I always wished everyone would like me. Not in the popular sense, but as nobody would psychically hate me.. that didn't come true. They are many people who hate me, mostly because i'm not stick thin like everyone else, they immediatly hate me?

But I would rather have no friends than friends like that, and even though I wish my life was different, I KNOW that in the future, it will be better. I'm going to work hard in everything that I do to be successful at whatever my career may be, and then who will be laughing :)

FIGHTING! :)